it's called 'fabouu'.

hai guys!
i have started my final semester1 test 2days ago.

well, yesterday was my 'princess' birthday, she is carine joman... yeaah...
she threw her 15th birthday party at Grand Aston.
waah, rich people. *nod-nod*

carine looked like a princess yesterday! such a beautiful princess.
if i were a boy, i have already fall in love with her and asked her to be my girlfriend or wife, or whatever!! pfft~

just a few photo that i took with my polaroid. :((
can't get close enough to her. bcz she's more focusing to her classmates, or sometimes she even went missing, i have no idea where she went!

 didn't she look stunning?

 me with CKC! (catherine, kelly, carine) i close with them :3

 one of the svssm! sandra, cute :3

 another one from svssm. ^^ melva. she looked hot. kkk,

my yesterday outfit detail.

(follow my ig: @veronicazheng)
-random dress that i bought at pasar beruang.
-necklace that i bought at universal.
-owl ring that i bought at phoebe&chloe.
-sis' charles&keith bag.     

hey. =.=

yesterday, when i wanted to refill my polaroid. something happened.

stupid me, i put the film backward. so it stucked. inside i panicked, but outside i giggled like a stupid girl. me and melva put our effort to pull out the film.

we forcely pulled it. so i thought, 'aah~ this film can't be used anymore'. and then henny came and saw, asked what happened. so i tell. she said 'so the film can't be use anymore!', i was like, 'fine to me! but i really need to save my polaroid! hello!'

so, she helped me to pull it. but it no use. 

i got pissed. and i pulled it really hard like a crazy girl. but still no use! graah!

then, henny pulled my polaroid, i pulled the film. taraaa. with both of our powers. finally it got off.

thank god.

i was about to throw it away. but henny put the film on again. she said how about a try. we have no idea wanted to shoot who. so she just took a clover's cookies package(free snack) and gave it to me.

hey! it still can be use! kkk.

here's the result:

adios, amigo!

xoxo,

trusts and promises.

*sigh*
nothing bad has happened today.
but...
i have broke our friendship. with 'her'.
i can't take it anymore. i gave her chance for 2days. she could just texted me, bbm me, or anything! to explain!
but she didn't!

yesterday, yeaah, my date with jessica and steffi got canceled. but they're still going out without me.
bcz suddenly my groupmate texted me and told me 'on Sunday we will gathering at my house'
okayy, homework comes first right?

we were still doing our music assignment. well, coincidencely, my groupmates were all the groupmates of the geo assignment. i'm not one of them, though. suddenly, 'she' bbm-ed catherine. she was asking, 'may i join your guys group?'
okay i was a little shocked. so whats jessica told me wasn't a lie. it's true.
my face totally changed, from happy to angry. my groupmates didn't notice, duh, no way i gonna showed out my emotions. i just kept silent, and inside i cursed her silently.
still, bitch. has she forgotten about me?

so this morning. at class,'she' was nearby my seat, 'she' was talking to my friend who is sit beside me and she is 'her' friend. i just ignored 'her'. pretending 'she' wasn't there. 'she' called me, but i still ignoring 'her'. 'she' knew i was angry, 'she' knew.

before that, i asked nathania, what's just happened? how could this all became like this? but nathania, herself also confused. *sigh* okay, whatever.

i asked one by one, everybody story has their own versions. and trust me, all the versions were different. didn't have a one similar. nice right.
but then, one of my friend here who is also 'her' friend. told me.
she did mentioned me to her friends.
my friend told me, she told her that,
'she wanted to be in the same group with me so bad. she's already told our classroom's president that she wanted to be in the same group with me. but our classroom's president arranged her to be in the same group with them. and bcz she knew i was mad at her this morning, she said it's okay if i won't be in the same group with her, she just wanted me to forgive her'

was she sad? yes.
i could see it in her face.

i've got this a few questions in my head:
is it worth it to end this friendship?
i still confused.

am i sad?
it breaks my heart.

can i trust her again if i forgive her?
i don't know. it'll be hard.

do i want to listen to her explanation?
i do.

then why won't i just ask her to explain?
the truth is, this morning, i couldn't stand to look at her face.

so how can she explain if i don't want to look her face?
i am hoping she will text me. so bad, to explain.

why am i not the one who text her and ask her to explain?
it's to hard, i'm too mad at her.

*sigh*
i even don't know how many times already have i sighed. the hardest question that i have in my head now.
do i want to make this friendship work again?
....

i am really sad.
sad that i have lost one of my precious friend. sad bcz it's hurt to see her face. sad bcz neither of us wanted to make this friendship work again. SAD.

 

jessica brought her polaroid this morning.

we took a few snaps.

but i only took one snap of the polaroid with vete's galaxy and posted it to instagram. hehe.

from left to right: veronicazheng(me), erik leonardi, gracia djaja, vincent tiogana, jessica tjiunardi.

i'm out of here!

INSTAGRAM: veronicazheng

xoxo,